private stuff

18th June, 2008

me: who's angels ?
juhi: d ppl who helped me ysternite, who din let me give up hope and confidence
me: what hapend ?
juhi: i told u a lil while ago, accident
me: so last night u met with accident? hw ?
juhi: yes :D bike skid kari baarish ki wajah se
me: damn
juhi: it was a pulsar mast mazaa aaya
me: ya its kinda thrill too, bas chot kam ho :D
juhi: wo toh nahi hai :D
me: maine ek raah chalte ko thoka tha may end me :D
juhi: pehli baar i was scared after an accident, cos waist dwn for smtim i felt i had got paralysed

12 minutes later

juhi: chalo ji doc time, c u later
me: see ya

bout 3 hours later

me: zidane retire na hota to ?
juhi: ?????????????????????????
me: stupid sawal :D by rohan
juhi: hahaahaha rohan is 1 guy i cant stand
me: football fever me hoga abhi to :D
juhi: had ur lunch?
me: yeah had company today, when will i hv company of girl :(
juhi: hey bhagwaan despo
me: i m even considering pros. :P
juhi: wattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
me: thats bad i know bt my life is so disturbed, its totally aimless juhi: thank god u kno tat much atleast me: so should i proceed ?
juhi: wr?
me: enjoying the plesures of life :P
juhi: go ahead
me: thanks :) i knew ur supportive :P
juhi: euuuuuuuuuuuuu
me: means ?
juhi: kuch nahi
me: i knw its nt very njoyable actually, relations on money :( i ve been delaying for bout 3 months :D n god knows hw long yet :D
juhi: can v talk smthng els pls
me: ok
juhi: its yr private stuff an i dnt wnt 2 kno abt it
me: so who won btwn croatia n germany ?
juhi: i dunno
me: i ve no tv :(
juhi: ohhk
me: cant handle more than one girl at a time :(
juhi: paresh bye
me: juhi hi :D i mean chatting me, kya soch rahi thi ???
juhi: mere dimaag ne kal k baad se kaam karna chorr diya hai
me: yeah thats horrible when i fell frm scooter, i lost memory for sm brief 15 min due to bleeding frm head juhi: :P
me: i was disturbed for 2 days :(
juhi: i wanted 2 vomit aftr d accident and was semi-conscious tats al i rmmbr and i felt paralysed waist dwn mast toh aaj laga jab dad x-ray karwaane le gaye........ mast jhatke khaaye
me: road construction chalu hai :D ?
juhi: baarish ki daya se potholes hain as it is my backs badly hurt........ cant sit on my ass, upar se scooter pe wow
me: main dost ko lift deta hu aaj kal, uski bike thuki thi, repairing me hai
juhi: kool
me: vaise main LML mushkil se vapis lata hu, sahi salamat :D its thrilling coz my legs dont rest on ground when i sit on it, feels like in the air :P
juhi: ur legs dnt rest on d ground........ y?
me: ya, wats ur height? buy this yamaha kji bike, light hai........ cute hai, u wnt hv probs
me: 5 feet 4 inch, its ok whn i m alone no prob.
juhi: kool chalo ab main chali
me: catch u soon after tea :)
juhi: soch rahi hun sutta peeyun k nahi
me: same here :D
juhi: chalo m off 2 sleep take care bbye godbless u :)

19th June, 2008

me: hi living lady :)
juhi: gudmorning :)
me: same to you :) vaise meri good nahi hai :(
juhi: kya hua baccha?
me: got up late, breakfast ka time nahi tha, feeling bad
juhi: ohh-hoo......... ab khaa lo thora sa
me: ab to lunch hoga :P actually last night didnt eat
juhi: ohh-hoo wats wrng wid u? y u behavin like a lil kid? y din u hv ur dinner?
me: bas aise hi, bhookh nahi thi :D it happens often nw, i skip lunch or dinner then galat time pe bhookh lag jaathi hai :(
juhi: thn dnt skip nethjng plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
me: ab kya kare, hotels se me bahut bore ho chuka hu, samajh nahi aata kya order karu :(
juhi: khud khaana bana-na shuru kar do
me: its a long process, bartan kharidne hai
juhi: no it ain't, its a fun process, m gonna cook aaj ka lunch 4 my family. bartan shoppin is fun, much more thn neothr shopin
me: and hw bout washing 'em :D
juhi: tats fun again, buy urself rubber gloves, haath kharab nahi honge, and a dish washin brush
me: bt its nt good for i hv a good salary, if i do such things myself
juhi: paresh smtimes tlkin 2 u is like bangin my head against d wal get married and torture ur wife :P
me: i m avoiding to buy furniture, tv etc. to run away anytime u need to have least baggage :D
juhi: :P
me: thats the big issue, i feel like i ll be flying to smwhere far any time. so I cant concentrate on anything :(
juhi: gross
me: ?gross ?
juhi: u r so frustrated wid ur life, i pity u
me: where's the frustration? its nt bout that. its just that i feel like this job, this environment is nt for me. i should be doing smthng else, so i ll be packing anytime :P
juhi: tats bettr 4 u i guess
me: even buying tv is postponed, i hv nt seen tv for bout a yr nw :) n dont feel like watching
juhi: paresh get alive, u r jus in ur 20z not a senior citizxen
me: ya i act like that :( i want to feel young :P live for today
juhi: thn live
me: hw :D
juhi: nxt time it rains go an get wet, close ur eyes and apna bachhpan yaad kartna
me: right, bt why do i always think of girls when think of enjoyment ?
juhi: tats anthr way 2 relax
me: thats the only way i know :P
juhi: gross
me: bt smtimes i need smone to talk to like you, thats also a way to relax
juhi: :) lemme kno wat u'd want 2 sign my plaster as

17 minutes later

me: sorry we ve one printer only, so all come to me for it :) guess tea will give relief with one sutta obviously ;) hope u ll come when i return :)
juhi: :) m here

bout 3 hours 

me: so hw was day at home?
juhi: borin
me: same here, tried to tell a lady the story of one night @ call centre :D
juhi: paresh pls keep ur sex stories and ur girl talks away frm me
me: i know my name :D what happend ?

5 minutes later

juhi: 2 whm?
me: u said paresh n stopped :D
juhi: i dnt rrmbr
me: terrible memory :D 5 min me forgot ???
juhi: arre was busy, photoz le rahi thi
me: office me ?
juhi: kaun?
me: photo kahan le rahi ho? kiske?
juhi: apni le rahi hun, apne wounds ki le rahi hun

6 minutes later

juhi: ne1 thr or shall i log off?
me: i m. sorry boss jataee jate kal ka kaam bata gaye :(
juhi: kool chalo ab me out
me: wheneve i hinted to hav sex
juhi: gotto get ready doc se date hai
me: there r probs. coming frm nowhre :( mera wound dekha? aankh k baju me
juhi: pls not interested........... u talk gross and sick, this is d last time v spoke
me: bt mera wound to dekho mummy daant ne wali hai aaj :(

sleepy knees

17th June, 2008
me: ur precious comment and vote is required :) (link)
Juhi: wr?
me: follow the link
Juhi: wow wat a poll, gotto wrk my knees for this u shld hv had one more option saying neothr pls specify
me: u can do it urself, dont vote just write it as comment
Juhi: kool. wait my knees r stil sleepy done
me: boss
lemme see :D
thank you so much, u r the fastest to respond :)
Juhi: matlab? mere se pehle bhi bahuton ne reply kiya hai
me: :D 2 ladies, one to yet comment. one did.
Juhi: :)
me: think my options were nt good enough :(
Juhi: no re aisa nahi hai
me: google search was an old joke. why ppl choose that more ?
Juhi: cos tats d most feasible option, knees hv 2 wrk les for tat option

11 minutes later

me: sorry. boss is hot coz i got new gfs to chat all the time :D
Juhi: :) hes simply jealous
me: i know, good practice for after marriage wife's behaviour :D
Juhi: hahahahahahahahaha
me: why everybody is so possessive bout me :P
Juhi: hahahahaha shut up now :P
kahan gaye?
mere paas zyada time nahi hai, iske baad main tv dekhne jaaungi :d
me: tv me kya dekhna ?
saas bahu soaps? paanchvi paas ?
Juhi: euuuuuuuuuu sab kuch but tat
me: repeat movies ?
Juhi: i prefer mtv, vh1, travel and living, axn, hbo, star movies, star wrld
me: mtv sucks nw, they show roadies all day
Juhi: thy dnt nemore. roadies is over ages ago. now d new season wld start wid auditions starting frm august. chalo now time for me to say take care bye bye hv a gr8 day ahead
me: ok bye aftrnoon me milege :)
Juhi: provided main office mein free hun, mera kal kaa bahut kaam pending hai.
bhagwaan janta hai ki meri tabiyat kab theek hogi ki main apna kaam theek time pe poora kar paaun
me: get sick leave. when i get sick, i cant pass time so i must come office :D
Juhi: i'l get leave only after i die me: why? its inhuman. every proffesional has right to leave
Juhi: i dnt hv efficient staff at wrk so i gotto do it al by myslf, cant leave d office for one day also. off day bhi saale phn karke tangg karte hain chalo ji byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

5 hours later

me: free nw ?
Juhi: heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyylooooooooooooo
Kinda. busy dancin at office, can u suggest sm gud dance numbers?
me: pappu cant dance saala :D
Juhi: kool thnx. ab humma humma k baad pappu chalaungi
me: aur wo tashan ka dil haara re.
Juhi: dil dance maare ho gaya. abhi arm wrestlin kii, apni vatt lawaa li
me: ladko se kari ?
Juhi: obviously me: when i do, even sm girls can defeat me :D
Juhi: arre but i hv non-functional rite hand. usi se arm wrstling ki hai
me: great
Juhi: :D ab ye hand semi-functional se non-existant ho gaya hai
me: bt u had fun in office, here its so borring with uncles and aunties
Juhi: i din hv fun, i hate in here
me: why? dont like job ?
Juhi: i jus pass my time here cos at home i hv nothn 2 do, i love my job but not my office it suckz in here.
me: love job nt office ? office is where job is :D
Juhi: my industry is very diff frm others, i love d aircrafts d delays cancellations d pax handling, i love it all but d company naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i'v wrkd wid bigger brands and was way happy thr
me: thats what i said, u r in right field bt nt the right company
Juhi: tats true smtimes i feel y on earth had i left queenfisher but its ok........ atleast m still wid d aviation industry me: so which is ur company ?
Juhi: *** airlines ltd
me: so u left ***** for unknown company ?
Juhi: not xactly. i had left it for more money way bigger position but tat din wrk and i had wantd a comeback 2 airlines so this is my comeback airlines i had got d position of manager-sales wid salary 50k but d ppl thr wr pimps and mf's so left it
thanx for chattin wid me .... :)
me: what s mf's and pimps ?
Juhi: and sorry 4 wasting ur time
pimps r dalaal.......mf-mother fuckers
me: oo i know bt short form nahi samjha :D
Juhi: tats ok. m sorry i wasted ur time wid my story
me: which story? its nt so long to term as story
Juhi: u din read watevr i had typed?
u made me do al tat mehnat for no reason.....this is not fair
me: are u didnt read what i wrote. i said its nt so long to be called a story. its few lines only
Juhi: dnt hv pity but pls hv sm mercy on this broken girl
me: u r nt reading at all, i read everything Juhi: my rite hands gone lifeless now :(
me: bt u r nt reading anything i write i think :(
Juhi: and i'v an xam on firday..... mera kya hogaaaaaaa i m readin it al.... jus buggin u... :D
me: so mean u r :(
Juhi: :P sorry peace! :)
me: thats why i always say never wrk for money. do wrk that satisfy ur soul and mind
Juhi: did it 4 my family dude, can v pls cut this crap now?
me: as u said the story i carried :)
Juhi: i vl hv 2 log off ne moment now dnt mind pkzzzzzzzz
chal m out now, apna mood theek karne jaa rahi hun cafe coffee day
me: guess u earn much still to afford cafe coffe day. i take roadside tea :D
Juhi: u also finish ur wrk and go home
me: 3 Rs. me cutting chai :D
Juhi: i earn 2 spend and tats wat i do. jus goin 2 get a box of cheese balls for 20 rs
me: vaise main 3 mahino se cgrt par per day 35 kharch raha hu :D
smtimes more than food :D
Juhi: my cigs cost 80 bucks
me: brand diffff :D wills navy cut costs 3.5 per stick. u must be having 5 rs wali
Juhi: i used 2 b a navy fan...... after my bronchitis and a fear of tb or lung cancer, i switchd 2 classic ultra milds. 2 weeks back tak i was wid navy, doc ne kaha ya toh cig chorr ya arthi ready kar. i said arthi sounds better
Juhi: milds is ok ok types. i'd prefer marlboro lits than classic, but yahan marlboro ka swiz maal milta hai tat doesnt taste nice. i prefer d us maal of marlboro but ab mera koi supplier nahi raha so kabhi kabhi classic ultra wid whisky injections le leti hun
chal ab me out catch u later godbless u
me: so navy is dangerous ? main to vaise bhi kamjor hu :(
Juhi: apna haath theek kar lun nahi toh kaam nahi kar paaungi
paresh....... hamesha baaton mein uljhaana bandh kar :P ab bye bol
me: ok see you tomorrow
bbye take care hv drink, go party tonight :)
Juhi: m not drinking :P
i dnt party nemore, got a delayed flite and usless bunch of staff 2 handle
me: here no staff under me :D i m the useless staff :P
Juhi: busssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss................................................. ladkiyon se bhi zyada baat karta hai, u r jus like a lil 5 yr kid :)
remain d way u r, godbless u
me: 5 yr ?
Juhi: now this aunty has 2 leave..........
me: thats too small. my hormones r working, make it 13 or 14 at least :P
Juhi: paresh............. STOP now u r behavin like a 3 yr
me: :(
Juhi: bye bolo and mujhe jaane do
me: sweet dreams :)
Juhi: gudnite take care me: dream me muje dekhna :)
Juhi: sleep well sweet dreamz. dreams mein mujhe mat dekhna, godbless u :)
me: i see hot babes usually :P
Juhi: wicked
me: JLo,
Juhi: byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeme: naomi watts
Juhi: bye bye bye 1 more wrd and i wnt chat wid u 2mrw byeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

what's crush exactly

25th February, 2008

me: so hw s my poem :)
Shalini: was it urs
me: u dont know my id? i sent from mobile ystrdy
Shalini: i mean from u, written by u yaar
me: not original, i know. so u like only original?
Shalini: no, i can read any, but originals r better
me: k. i ll look out for inspiration :)
Shalini: its ok
me: u cant think like poet in real life with probs. all around
Shalini: right
me: i gotta go for pet pooja :)
Shalini: what is pet pooja
me: feeding stomach
Shalini: u want it right? u want to have some prob
i think i will be busy in some time, must work on the firm website with the sys admin
me: they say one has to pass thru sufferings to succeed, its compulsory.
no gain without pain
Shalini: this does not apply to self inflicted suffering leading to health probs
me: oh no its diff, today i ve stoped
Shalini: its not something i would do. but its ur choice
me: i ll not smoke untill pain is over. maybe coz the chnge of brand

20 minutes later

me: so u took that suffering story in context of cigarettes :D
it was bout general life
Shalini: general rules always apply to specific things :)
me: my colleague too is wrking on a directory btw :P
she talked to me today :)
Shalini: and what did she say
me: it was official bt she cud ve avoided me if she wished.

7 minutes later

Shalini: oh oh
me: jealous ?
Shalini: huh not at all
i was thinkng - this is what u consider progress
me: changing pc hold on.
Shalini: but if u dont have anything, then this is something i guess
im going out, will come later

35 minutes later

me: progress lol
she didnt say sorry, it was official chat.

27th February 2008

me: hi soni
Shalini: hi
me: hw was the poem?
holding my breathe
m not blinking yet
Shalini: aaa which 1? u sent on mail?
me: ya
Shalini: ah yes. well fine
me: just fine? its original. for u only :)
Shalini: oh then more valuable
me: hw bout the idea btw?
Shalini: which 1
me: making the boss ur pet :P
at least tell me that u smiled when reading, not laughed maybe.
Shalini: yaar i dont remember, i suppose this will go on one more week. then i will be more free
me: i was so angry last evng, still i wrote u that one

6 minutes later

Shalini: angry with whom
me: one school girl in chat, she was my frnd till ystrdy. she invited me to chat on yahoo, asked my photo n then said u dont look good at all

6 minutes later

Shalini: :) which pic did u send
me: i had none in this pc so copied from gmail chat image n sent :D
Shalini: next time send the other one, which u sent first to me, it is better
this one from gmail chat is not good
me: i know bt its not why i got angry, she has right to believe what she thinks suitable. bt she didnt care to say bye or anythig n just signed out of msngr.
n above that she had been copying my way of pasting profile visitors n today's fortune in her scrapbook.
i commented on that n she got angry n removed me from list
btw didnt i invite u on face book?
Shalini: no u didnt
me: what is ur id?
Shalini: hmmm i log on with my gmail id :)
me: oh ys i m just a week old.
got it?
Shalini: nope
me: they say friend request sent.
Shalini: maybe it will take a few mins
me: saw ur name
Shalini: it came
me: Mia Uyeda thinks that today is the day you should tell ur secret crush the truth :)
Shalini: what r these things
me: see my other friend Mia. its her status message so i just sent her msg that i love her :P
Shalini: good. good luck
me: i love u too btw :)
Shalini: too many crushes, dont u think
me: whats crush exctly ? isnt it for teens only I guess?
Shalini: u said something abt telling truths to secret crushes
me: i had many crushes in school, maybe one every day :D
Shalini: no, for me crush is not only for teenagers
i'm done with this i hope, for the rest of life, its all past
i know one thing, soch samajhke paar karna :)
if ur going to go for love marriage
me: suddenly i ve started to hate marriage,
Shalini: bcos love is ok till u dont come to live with the person
well dont marry
me: par ye jalim samaj, ye bedard duniya, ye muje har hafte ek ladki dikhane le jate hai.
abhi ek ghante me jana hai
tumhe hindi gaaliya aati hai??? i m short of it
Shalini: i know some but i dont use
maybe u will come to know someone good for marriage this way, by seeing many
me: tell which u know, i m bored with the 4-5 I know, need variety to abuse sitting alone in my room each evening
Shalini: no i wont say them
n u have to reconsider whether to use them or not :)
if u have negative attitude nothing good will come
enjoy sitting alone while u can :) later u will wish to have chance but u wont
me: so u know hard core gaaliya :P
hey nw i can send all my new applications to u
Shalini: yeah u can, i can also, i have many
me: chek that what person attracts u?
i got outgoing person.:P
Shalini: alright i got to get to work seriously now, so far working n chatting, but work permitted it. now have to do some important things that need concentration
me: i m nt important :(
Shalini: i get paid to work here. pay me to chat with u n i will stay whole day :)
see u
me: hey they send u real gift for money on face book? or just photos :DShalini: no real things. everything is virtual bye

what sweet are you fond of ?

21st February, 2008

me: i wrote for u, took 3 hours :)
Shalini: ru sure
me: ok i got it on net !
what to do, i cant write so good
Shalini: dont be upset abt this, few ppl can
me: i wrote one for an RJ here, that was original.
Shalini: what is RJ
me: radio jokey, works in fm radio stations like tv anchors
Shalini: right
me: her prog. on valentine's day was so good, i had to mail her from mobile !
i could send u bt its in gujarati.
Shalini: so was their any response to ur creation
me: no, she had replied to my msg bfore bt the shayri didnt manage to get reply :(
Shalini: must try again then
me: yeah waiting for inspiration, she everyday talks on air as if talkin to me, i ve to respond, na?
Shalini: as if talking to u :)
me: believe me. :)
Shalini: do u like kheer
me: like bt not very fond of
Shalini: what sweet ru fond of
me: you
ok i like gulab jamun, jalebi. avoid sweets usually
Shalini: :) i dont like indian sweets, i think only sandesh and kheer, but here we also make.
indian sweets r very sweet. i like chocolate most of all
me: i guessed so, i dont like it tasting like sugar

11 minutes later

me: dreaming bout me?
Shalini: no i got work, and also many other things to do, chat, read forums
me: ya more important than my bakwas .
btw u want to read that poem of mine?
Shalini: ok but i wont understand it
me: i ll translatte it for u
“Prakruti ni bak bak etli to miss karu chhu..
weekend ma bas Purani Jeans paheri ne faru chhu !
Samay ne kahi didhu ulto chale..
Somvaar ni Raat Divas thi pahela aave”
just tell me hw much did u got?
then i ll fill in the blanks :)
Shalini: almost nothing
me: ok. her name is Prakruti.
i miss Prakruti's bakwas so much that i move around wearing purani jeans ( name of her program) whole saturdy and sunday
i told the time to go slow n let the night of monday come before the day (of monday)
Shalini: huh so i have understood the first line then
why do u want the time to go slow when u cant wait for monday?
me: soorry sorry, translation mistake. it was told to run in reverse actually :)
ulta means reverse in gujarati like hindi :)
Shalini: why to run in reverse
me: to have night bfore day :D
its simple i think. wasnt it a good one? her program comes at 9 pm btw
Shalini: ahh monday night to come b4 the day
me: now u got it :)
Shalini: well n i didnt know her show is at night
me: ok i missed it, its tough to convert poem in other language. the feel is lost n she told a much better poem once. bout chilly winter night aur laherate baal.
that too in gujarati :)
Shalini: do u read poems
me: started recently, i can edit others’ creations n give my message. its fun :P
Shalini: i like shelley
me: hw is she?
tell her good day from me :)

8 minutes later

me: hi princess :)
Shalini: shelley is poet
me: lol
ok i need a lot of inspiration n get rid of the negative thoughts to read it seriously n know poets.
gotta have tea , keep up the serious work :)
Shalini: yes see u

42 minutes later

me: hey check out sm polls i created in PJ community in orkut, its funny :)
Shalini: can u send link
me: (link)
Shalini: yeah i saw another of u there and all
me: comment?
Shalini: what to say...
me: tell that u ROFL
Shalini: sometimes i dont like being sincere. its very hard sometimes. its something i must work on. its a fault in me
i mean one should not be sincere always
me: ? what sincere?
Shalini: i have to go out, but im feeling so sleepy that i dont want
me: we were talking PJ :D
so u didnt vote?
Shalini: no. what is PJ, is what i think it is
yaar outside there r protests, how will i go out?? there r ppl shouting
me: Poor Joke it is.
why protest?
Shalini: yes, so i thought
huh u know, under the window, a whole croud, the street is full
me: no idea why?
maybe they're lookig for u :) mad bout u :)
Shalini: haha
protest against the gov, they r shouting – resign.
so many ppl
me: same prob with all govt.
r u on face book?
Shalini: yes. they r still going on the street, so many
me: yes for what? should i invite u? i ve got a VJ there :P
Shalini: ok im still stuck to the window, its scary, thousands of ppl still no end of the line
me: u dont have much population so its really big i guess
thousands ?
Shalini: wow there is no end, streets r very big, n they r full of ppl moving since i told u
me: so all stopped working?
Shalini: those who r on the street, we too :) to watch
oh they r about to end, i see the end of the line
me: ohh no gotta get back to work na :D
me: ystrdy when u went to wrk, i was chatting with another girl, she told me as she is one month older than me, mujhe uska kaha manna padega :D
Shalini: hmmm unrealized boss attitude?
me: hw bout wife being ur boss ?

8 minutes later

Shalini: depends
me: lol

Nothingess Revisited

I can't say i missed my diary in last 6 months. I have been completely lost in the struggle to survive in my fiercely competitive occupation. And as always, i never like to write half-heartedly.

Now again, as i have nothing specific to say even today, today seems to be perfect to end Nothingness - my last incomplete post.

Thats it.
Thanks for reading. (and thinking over my writing if anyone's going to).