Don't be talking to a stranger !

Now as she had threatened me to go to psychiatrist otherwise she won't talk to me. I had to make a false story that i did visit a psychiatrist and explained her what advise i got from the fictitious doctor.

31st August, 2009

me: hello busy ?
kalpana: just 10 mits pls
me: waiting...

6 minutes later

kalpana: abhi bas thoda samay lag raha hai pls

10 minutes later

kalpana: hiiiiiiiiiiiiii u thr?
me: hii who ws there /
kalpana: whr? u r busy?
me: aap busy thi :D
main kahan, kis havoc ki baat kar rahi thi ? i hv no idea
kalpana: koi baat nahi, u r ok?
me: m fine
kalpana: went to doc ?
me: pehle ye batao kal kya hua tha
kalpana: wanna tell me about it
me: pj me
kalpana: no just heated discussion about ur ban n del the thread about kids
me: mere ban lift hone ka support to kisine nahi kiya hoga :(
to fir lag gaya , hai na ?
kalpana: ya, but u can join by different name n profile, kitna waqt lagta hai
me: tumne bhi ? ohh ye to maine socha hi nahi tha :P
kalpana: n dont make those mistakes again ok?
me: bt its hard, i cant do these things
kalpana: listen paresh i care for u
me: 2 profiles :(
kalpana: oh not very tough, try it. bhool jao pahle wale ko, surname se join karo
me: par yaad rakhan padega ki main paresh nahi, koi aur hu
kalpana: new identity, new behavour, good man ok?
me: koi pucchega to kya kahu main kya karta hu etc
kalpana: thats y im tellin u to join with ur surname or any pet mane
me: dimaag pe strain padega na
kalpana: so wahi batana, kya do log ek jaisa kaam nahi karte?
me: i hv tried before , then left :
kalpana: doc ne kya kaha?
me: kya kehta bechara. thts my real problems na :( i told u before
kalpana: kya?
me: he says its my nature, main bahut sochta hu, planning karta hu. plus m short tempered so this sums up to anxiety+stress :)
kalpana: he was a psychiatrist or psychologist?
me: dunno exactly bt he listened me for long nd concluded tht i hv to do smthng bout my family probs and maybe marriage is best to hv smone share feelings. loneliness adds to mental stress most
kalpana: did he told u relaxation exercises n other anxiety reducing techniques?
me: no. nthng special, just try not to plan too much and stay away frm ppl who act rude nd trigger stress
kalpana: ok
me: so wat to do
Kalpana: is thr anyone to whom u love?
me: none. only my to be wife
kalpana: ur brothers?
me: younger hai
kalpana: u dont lov them?
me: they r adults, nt so young
kalpana: kya adult bros ko pyar nahi kiya jata?
me: pyaar to main poori duniya se karta hu, aap se bhi :) its totally free. i hate commerce involvement in relations, thts it
kalpana: so y dont u have a single long lasting relationship? r nt u too demanding?
me: wat demand ? i never had ny relations outside home :D i dnt knw wts tht
kalpana: y?????
me: thts mystery
kalpana: kitne logon se milte ho kya koi is layak nahi ke tum usko pasand karo? har kisi me kami hai?
kya tum me koi kami nahi? tell me paresh, ye demands nahi to kya hai ? kitni conditions laga de pyar me bhi
me: office me frnds hai bt nt like we can go out on sunday together, its tough on holidays
kalpana: kyunki tumhe unper shak hota hai agar wo tumhre close aate hain to, hai na?
me: aate hi nahi :D khas kar ladkiya, it becomes professional with girls :(
kalpana: tum jate ho pas unke? share kiya unse kuchh? kabhi koshish ki jaisa ki virtual world me karte ho?
me: nahi ki, coz i knw wat will happen :(
kalpana: so try it. koshish karo
me: i cant handle rejection
kalpana: flirt karne ki nahi genuinely dosti ki
gosh.. koi nahi reject karta. jyada se jyada saath coffee peene ko mana karegi bass, dont ask, just go, talk some small talk, see her response .n next step next day ok?
me: anjaan ladki se baat karna , u knw agar mere contacts hote to it cud hv be easy
kalpana: ahaaaaaaaaaa make contacts, frnds ko invite karo kisi vacation wale din
me: frnds to sirf company me hai, its official :(
kalpana: just ask, kya kar rahe ho sham ko, sham ko ghar aao hav a new video or game or somthin ...bass, office me hi
me: office me hi ? kya
kalpana: office me jo achchha lagta ho, dost, usko invite karo, 2 or 3 ko movie ke liye ya drinks ke liye then they will invite u
me: i knw we hv done this before, nw its upto girl frnds :( nd i want new ppl nt connected with home or office :)
kalpana: hahha then go to mall n ask some one or in pub
me: right
kalpana: hey got to go patient is waiting
me: tell him "have patience", kitne log ye kar pate hai usually ?
kalpana: hahah kafi der se baitha hai kyon roji roti per lat marte ho
me: asking out strangers ? bas itna jawab de do. kitne log duniya me strangers se baat kar sakte hai ? successfully i mean opposite sex
kalpana: any one can do it
me: no. i mean do u knw anyone
kalpana: at least mere hubby, mere dono bete kisi se bhi baat kar sakte hain, i hv seen them
kisi bhi girl se
i can talk to any stranger.......if i beleive in myself, n honest , y shd i care...wht others think about me or fear reajection?
ok der ho gayi bbye. agar ho saka to kal milenge

3rd September, 2009

me: hii aunty ji :)
kalpana: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii how r u
me: ok waiting for smone to call me "beta" lol
kalpana: hahaha raja beta..... ok?
me: raja kaisa :( nokri kar raha hai raja to lol
kalpana: shona chandnanha bachcha pyara gudiya, how r u?
so maa ke liye to sare bachche raja hote hain. i call my kids always raja beta aur atleast wid me u can feel like u r a king
me: thnks :) btw aapka bete ki age kya hogi ?
kalpana: kya jaroorat hai sab par raj karne ki. bas kuchh log ho jinke liye aap special ho, isnt that enough?
20 n 18 yrs..
me: ok so aapki age hai 73
73-20=53
kalpana: hahhaha u gotme
me: you had ur first child at 53 ;)
kalpana: ok iam atypical hahaha miracles do happen na
me: thts nt at all believable :(
be honest plz :)
kalpana: kya karna hai jan kar? kya fark padta hai ?
me: it feels unreal :)
kalpana: iam 42
me: so thts correct
i guessed so :) around 45. you must be if u r female :D
kalpana: well i think so
me: so wts the purpose of 73 ?
kalpana: just to avoid unwanted attention
me: so u r too beautiful :P
kalpana: yes iam
me: can we talk sex, dont mind :)
kalpana: no we cant BETA
me: :( ok. can i see ur picture plz :)
kalpana: naaaaaaa, hahha beta
me: why ? i told u almost everythng bout me and u keep telling to tell me about u later :)
helloooooooo

9 minutes later

me: helloo wt happened ?
kalpana: got DC but busy rite now
c ya later
me: sach ka samna :P